My past heartaches and heartbreaks left me tired sad, hurt, hopeless, helpless, full of questions, and what else? *sigh* I lost the right words to describe it.
All of the topsy-turvy relationships I had, made me realize a lot of things. It made me think and made me ask myself a question—-how do I get out of these repetitive heartbreaks? Hmmmm.. I was left thinking about the things that I need to do, things I need to furnish, and plans I need to accomplish.
I realized that there are a lot of things to do in this life than to cry over spilled milk. Life is way more than just falling in love. There are lots of people around me aside from my special someone. There are lots of issues around the corner that needs my attention, energy, talents, and resources.
So I said to myself, I need a break, I need time to compose myself, and I need to focus on other things aside from my heart and feelings. I said to God, I will pause for a while. I will not rush things about love. I will give myself a break. I will focus on things that are important. I will fix myself. I will arrange my life. And I prayed:
God, I will become better and (not bitter) to ready myself for that one special person you have destined for me. And please, I beg you, that whenever I will fall in love again, I humbly pray that she’ll be the one that I will end up with forever.
So everything went well for a little while. I lived peacefully and happily. Doing things that I love and that makes me happy. I’m picking up the pieces one by one. I moving forward one step at a time. And then someone popped out in my life.
The next thing I know, I don’t know what to do. Is she the one I’m looking for all my life? Or is it the same old story happening all over again? A remake with a different character perhaps? Will I just ignore her? I don’t know.
Checking pulse rate..
Heart’s unresponsive, unable to check heart status.
Heart will shut down.